Petros and Lydia Babayan (World Watch Monitor)

Petros Babayan strains to sit up as if each bone of his paper-thin frame were heavy as iron. His wife Lydia and adult daughter Rita rush to help him. In their tiny rented apartment in Beirut, his single bed takes up a quarter of the room in which they live and sleep. His large sunken eyes, dark against his paper-white skin, stare straight ahead as he focuses on breathing. “I don’t wish for anything more,” he whispers. He points heavenwards, before adding: “I am at peace, my family are safe.” Two of his children are in the US, one is in Sweden, and one lives in Baghdad.

Petros and his wife left the Iraqi capital in 2010 as increasing violence made life there too perilous. “We came to a point where we couldn’t endure it anymore,” she says. They fled to Damascus in neighbouring Syria and were told they would be accepted as refugees in the US, but as the Syrian civil war escalated, in 2012 the US embassy was shut and its staff withdrawn. In 2014 the couple moved to Lebanon. “We have tried the US embassy in Beirut, but they were no help. We contacted the US embassy in Jordan but they said they couldn’t help us because we are in Lebanon.”

“We’ve had to pay for all Petros’ medical care. I worked for eight years in Baghdad, I saved every penny – and spent it all on Petros.”

Eleven months ago Petros was diagnosed with cancer, and the couple’s focus turned to Petros’ health. “The doctor said he’s had it for ten years or so,” Lydia continues. The couple believes he contracted the disease through exposure to carcinogenic chemicals in the weaponry used during his 14 years in the Iraqi army. Some Iraqi officials have linked the use of chemical weapons in the Iran-Iraq war, and the use of depleted uranium by US and UK forces during the Gulf War in 1991 and the US-led invasion of 2003, to a sharp rise in cancers and birth defects. The US and the UK have disputed this.

“We’ve had to pay for all Petros’ medical care,” Lydia continues. “I worked for eight years in Baghdad, I saved every penny – and spent it all on Petros.” Asylum seekers can access some healthcare through the UN Refugee Agency, the UNHCR, but may have to rely on charities or savings for other treatment.

Lebanon’s population of around 5 million has absorbed more than a million Syrians and tens of thousands of Iraqis with resignation. While a few thousand Syrians who fled civil war have begun returning home, the Iraqis who have applied for asylum in the violent years since 2003 have begun to make their home in their dreams of the West: they have no Plan B. They are stuck, refusing to return to a homeland they say is radicalised, and not yet permitted to resettle elsewhere. The families World Watch Monitor met in Lebanon had spent several years applying for asylum and had relatives in Canada, Australia or the US. Thousands of Iraqi Christians have been granted asylum in the West. Although Lebanon is linguistically and culturally close to Iraq, it does not encourage its asylum seekers to stay, and their experiences on the fringes of its economy, and their impressions of the West, have made them conclude that the better life lies outside the Middle East. Yet the financial and psychological impact of years of waiting is taking its toll.

Hilal and Mirza

Hilal and Mirza Shamoon holding a photo of their old house in Mosul, which is now in ruins (World Watch Monitor)

Sixty-year-old Hilal Shamoon used to run his own business; now he receives food parcels from the local Evangelical church. As an asylum seeker he was prepared to retrain as a tailor, working 8am-8pm, six days a week, but he was told he was too old and asked if his son Riad*, 28, wanted the job instead. “I am a poor man! Give me, give me, give me!” Hilal jokes. He, his wife Mirza*, Riad and their two daughters – a Syriac Orthodox family – fled their home in Mosul after Islamic State overran the northern Iraqi city in 2014. From their two-roomed lodgings in Beirut, 100 metres from a flyover, they reveal photographs of the ruins of their large house and the parade of shops where Hilal ran a small supermarket. IS jihadists forced them at knifepoint to hand over jewellery, cash and their car as they fled, before then moving into their house. Hilal adds: “There’s still some value in me. This [Beirut] is where we are in transit, but we believe there’s still something for us.”

Because Lebanon has not signed the 1951 UN convention on refugees it views the Syrians and Iraqis as “displaced persons” whom it is not obliged to permit to work. Although Syrians are to be found across Lebanon, squatting in half-built shopping centres or in unofficial camps, some Iraqis consider them the lucky ones: Syrians have been given access to some parts of the job market that Iraqis have not. Meanwhile some Iraqis have found ways to make a living, either on the black market – as Hilal’s son has, instead of tailoring – or by being paid in “gifts”.

Kevork and family

Kevork*, a pastor from Baghdad, is paid in gifts – one church covers the school fees for his 12-year-old son Sako*. Like Hilal, he feels the loss of material comfort and independence. “In Baghdad I had my own home, my own car,” he says. “Now I rent my home, I have to take taxis.” In Dohuk he planted and led a church; now, he says, “I serve three different churches, six days a week.” But he insists: “What I lost in Dohuk is not money; it’s my life, my ministry.” Kevork fled north to Dohuk in Kurdistan in 2006 with his wife Lina* and their son Sako, and became a pastor. His church there offered food parcels to Muslims and Yazidis, and some Yazidi leaders accused him of proselytism – a charge he rejects. But one day in 2015 a man came to his door and threatened to kill Sako, so the family fled again, to Beirut. As for post-IS Iraq, he says: “IS … destroyed the mind; most people now are of an Islamic mindset; you can’t trust them.”

More than a million Syrians and tens of thousands of Iraqis have moved to Lebanon in the past few years, many of them to the capital, Beirut (World Watch Monitor)

Hilal and Mirza have twice applied for asylum in Australia, where Mirza’s two brothers have settled, and are adamant that staying in the Middle East is not an option. While Mirza has cast off the veil she was forced to wear in Mosul after 2003, her husband is convinced there’s “no hope” for the Arab world. “There’s no security here,” says Hilal, who lost his brother in fighting in Mosul in 2005. But after the losses he has experienced he sees the events of the last 14 years as part of a longer narrative. “This is a continuation of the Seyfo,” he says, referring to the Ottoman genocidal campaign a century ago against Assyrians and Armenians, which he says killed “many” of his relatives. “It’ll just come back.”

For Kevork, giving up on his Iraqi homeland is explained by more recent events. He lost great-grandparents in the Ottoman Armenian genocide but today he remains deeply troubled by the circumstances of his father’s death in Baghdad in 2007. “People killed my father in his house. There was no investigation. They stole US$400-500 and called my brother and wanted to negotiate with him.” For a week, Kevork’s family did not realise that their father was already dead. “Our mother didn’t go home because she was scared to – not realising he was there. The post-mortem was not clear, because after a week the body was swollen.”

Kevork and Lina have not related all the details to Sako. But they felt they had to tell him about the death threat against the boy’s life, to explain why they were fleeing to Lebanon. Sako blamed himself. He “cried and cried” when he learned that they were leaving because of a threat against his life, Kevork recalls. “It’s easier for an adult to adapt than for a child, who doesn’t understand,” he adds.


All six members of Suha’s family sleep together in the main room of what is a converted shop (World Watch Monitor)

Growing up as asylum seekers places considerable strain on the four daughters of Suha, a divorcee from the Nineveh Plains region of Iraq. The girls, aged 14, 12, nine and five, do not attend school, and stay at home with Suha’s elderly mother, rising at noon and whiling away the hours on phones and tablets. All six of them sleep in the one main room of what is a converted shop – the kitchen is squeezed on to the balcony, the fridge is broken, the electricity intermittent and the neighbours at times violent. Suha summarises: “We are living in hell.” Suha’s nine-year-old has frequent nightmares and talks in her sleep. She has been diagnosed by a psychologist as hyperactive, and quickly becomes aggressive. Her younger sister is beginning to imitate her. “The kids are always fighting,” Suha says. “I feel very anxious, it feels like I’m mother and father at the same time; it’s a big responsibility.” In Iraq she was a primary school teacher. Now she works as a cleaner six days a week. Although her nine-year-old saw a psychiatrist, charities offer therapy for only a limited time with no follow-up, says Raphael Koupaly, Vice President of the Chaldean Charity Association in Beirut and Refugee Relief Coordinator of the Chaldean Church, who visits the family and delivers food parcels and subsidies for rent and healthcare. Mr Koupaly has encouraged Suha and her eldest daughter to join their church choir, to add routine to an otherwise chaotic existence.

“We are living in hell. The kids are always fighting. I feel very anxious, it feels like I’m mother and father at the same time; it’s a big responsibility.”

Suha’s husband left in 2014 – before the arrival of IS – when his son by his first marriage collected him from their home in the Nineveh Plains village of Telskuf and moved him into his house, in the same village. He paid Suha no maintenance despite intervention by their priest, and the UNHCR recommended that she file for a divorce to make gaining custody of the children easier. The agency also paid for a lawyer.

The family was soon offered asylum in Canada, which she could not accept because the divorce papers had not come through. The UNHCR recommended she try the US, but, she says, the Trump administration tightened up the rules in February. In May, “the UNHCR called me and said ‘the UK will accept you’”, but she is desperate to know when her family’s wait will be over. She reasons: “If God saved me from IS, he will save me from this.”

Mr Koupaly says “the exodus to Lebanon has put pressure on marriages” and cites various Iraqi couples in Beirut who are splitting up. But a divorced woman is still a marked woman in Iraqi culture, which is one reason why Suha is looking for a fresh start in the West. She says Britain symbolises a place of security, where “women will have more rights … than in Lebanon”. She cannot think of living anywhere else or make any other plans.

After experiencing trauma, loss or rejection from their communities, these asylum seekers have placed their hopes in God and the UNHCR. Although some Iraqi Christians are willing to return home, these Iraqis cannot countenance doing so. They believe their former neighbours have been irrevocably radicalised, even though the jihadists themselves are thought to have left.

Four days after World Watch Monitor met Petros, he died. Within hours, 20 or so mourners had attended his requiem Mass and burial. “If he’d died at home in Iraq, hundreds would have come to his funeral,” comments a European Christian who supports a number of Christian asylum-seeker families in Lebanon. For Petros the “Promised Land” remained a spiritual reality rather than a physical one. His family are safe, but scattered. If his widow Lydia is granted asylum, she will not be able to visit his grave.

The Middle Eastern Church’s massive loss over the last 14 years could be the global Church’s gain, enriching it with ancient traditions, new narratives, different experience of other faiths and, in the case of pastors such as Kevork, a formidable passion for evangelism. Scholars and others fret that Eastern traditions may blend within a generation into Western denominations or even secularism. But as the Seyfo histories attest, these are Christians with long memories. Meanwhile those Iraqis who have given up on their home country and placed their hope in asylum in the West feel the ongoing economic and psychological strain, and can but wait.

*Some names have been changed for security reasons.